I was having a tinker with MarsEdit last night, trying to get it to run a preview of my blog posts as I work on them. Still can’t get it working but in the process of reading up on it I read found a very interesting post on the developer Daniel Jalkut’s blog about his attitude to ‘approval seeking’ as facilitated by the likes of Twitter and Facebook. It so closely echoed my feelings on the subject that it could have been written for me or even by me. Here’s where it really hit home:
Many folks use the internet as a valuable tool for research and connectedness, but also as a dubious source for ego-validation. Some of us are more vulnerable than others. How many of the following questions do you care to know the answer to?
How many people are following me on Twitter?
How many hits on my home page?
Has any high-profile blogger linked to me recently?
How many people are @responding to my tweets?
How many comments on my latest blog post?
How early does my name show up in a Google search?
How many people are buying my app/t-shirt/CD/craft?
Who left positive feedback on eBay/Amazon/iTunes?If you’re interested in the answers to these questions, it’s probably because you are concerned on some level about whether you matter or not. But more specifically, when it comes to the internet and other people you may reach by way of it, all these questions boil down to whether you have pleased anybody lately.
I ticked ‘Yes’ to five of those, but only because the last two don’t really apply to me. Ouch.
Apparently this image to the left is all anyone’s seen of my blog for almost a week now, but seeing as I haven’t updated it in almost a month, I had no idea. I was tinkering with it last week and took it all offline deliberately for a couple of days, but I thought I’d fixed that. Evidently not!